Merry Christmas!Happy New Year in advance!HA!

Yup.When u see this post,i'm now in Johor.
It has been a while..
Watched Twilight:New Moon yesterday..It was not good not bad..Well,it could be better..
I had a lucky day yesterday,i saw a handsome 空少 on the airplace with his charming smile and stylish hair!He was so charming!hahaha...

Stayed at home, received hooi yee's invitation,asking me if i could go kl to find her..well, i wished i could, but my old folks not allow,especially my mom..

Haih..went to see cantata the other day!they are a real success..!The performance and the choir!they really had put a lot of effort in this cantata!All the best guys !Dint really update any pictures ya..
I'm too lazy^^haha..

Fly me to the moon

I went for 2012 last Friday.
It was nice, everyone said that..hahaha...well, i think it was nice too..cried a cuple of times..

Many things happen..i cannot doubt myself with a question like this anymore,am i so irritating?i dunt kno..it seems like nobody like me..And i, dont even have the rite to hate people..

God,will You forgive me?Will You help me to stop all the nonsense that i'm going through in my mind now?I NEED A BREAK..Seriously..

I'm deeply in love with the song that Taekyung sang in You Are Beautiful - Fly me to the moon.

You guys truly gotta go see that part that he sang..Can find it in youtube^^

Can someone fly me to the moon now?

yeah!clinic again!

I really enjoy my time in clinic..Though everything is brand new first time and new experience for me!!i really had a great time there!!And becos of clinic i got the chance to go OT for operation observation!From what i've seen in the movie..actually surgery ain't that horrible and scary..haih..Media nowadays..give false education..



I observed cataract operation today and now i can understand why my grandpa doesn't want to go for the operation ord..

Is scary for patient opening their eyes big and doctor doing procedure with your eyes open..

But you will feel sleepy^^

So no worries..haha



Yesterday my friends and i,4 of us,accidentally read a blog from a guy..We all ended up crying..I mean all the things he wrote i could feel it,Nevertheless,so are my friends..A wonderful person we met in that blog..If you read his story you would cry oso..



It had been such a long time that i dint do such thing with my friends ord..I mean cry together,upset something together for someone..I mean i did have that kind of experience but is with kl and jb friends..happy time happy together,sad time sad together..



I really like the sense of belonging in that way you know..It was like a significance between my friends and i..

At least,when ppl ask,how close we are? i can tell,we are close enough to shed our tears together for a stranger across a blog..



I thank Lord for once again make me feel that i belong in this college at this moment, not in kl anymore..

She's not ok..

What happen?

Why you dont want to tell what happen?

Why you want keep all these to yourself?

Tell me!!who bully you?!..at least let me do something to help you..

at least..take my shoulder for you to lean on..

at least..cry out..

Why you refuse?

Why?

I cant help you..you kno how it hurt so badly to me..looking at you suffering all this..i'm the one that is not good..

Not you..

How i wish i can be the 1 to put the colorful rainbow back on your beautiful face..

but you...

refuse..

Finally..

Mooncake festival..i miss home..a short snap in my dorm..

Hoo~~Finally finish for pengajian am ord!!em..

Reena: why do we need to study pengajian am ar?we as nurses need to go and tell patient like this "once upon a time,our malaysia.."

me: is the policy, this is dasar pendidikan malaysia..exactly what we are studying lo..for pembinaan bangsa dan perlembagaan negara..

Reena: oh..so this is dasar pendidikan ah..this is the rule ah...

me..ya..lol!!

I'm still being very busy at now..haih..but busy is good..a friend told me like that..at least you have fulfillment in your life!that is what she said..That statement is somehow i agree with..busy better than nothing to do..

I'll just have to move forward according to God's will and persevere hard!Em..A lot of things happen recently, sad and happy..good news and bad news..

We are starting new subject now, hemo lectures really make me sleepy..

speaking of sleepy,Reena and i made jokes about one of our senior(boy) the other day..

It was an old old story ord.

We were studying in the library and sitting seperately,this senior(boy) came and sat nearby us..actually he was just pass by!!FUYOH!!!A sense of smell sent to my brain and intrepret goosebumps on my skin!!The smell was like..uh..i guessed was very expensive perfume smell.. it was "nice" to him..hahaha..what can i said..

Reena and i started to sms.

Me:uh..girl.the smell going to make me pengsan!What perfume actually he is using?!!

Reena(reply):Yala!!i guess he campur different brand of perfume together and put on himself..

Me: hahahaha..(i was truly laughing!)yala!!i think he can work in ent clinic.All the patient with block nose or sinusitis will surely get cured right away..

Reena:(laughing also) ahahahaha...he surely cannot work in OT oso..

Me:why?

Reena:later his "aroma" can straight away wake patient with anaesthesia up!
Me:ahahahahahahaahha...(really laugh out loud until others turn their head aroundand looked at me)

I'm sorry but i cant help it..ahahaha..

Today i'm so free ya, suppose to be care plan day but bcos i'm in OB!!yeah!no need to do care plan but sure Madam will ask me a lot of questions like how she did last time..

Did anyone of you learn psycho?and how many percents do you like psycho?i dunt like that subject man..why human behaviour can come out theories oso?my behaviour change everyday..there's no specific name for my characteristic..Haih..all these people who come out psycho are really got nothing to do..

i'm cyborg,but it's ok!

i love the movie so much!!i like rain,and that is one of the reason why i like this movie yet i just love how thier love story goes on!!HIghly recommend for all of you my friends!!

i had a wonderful weekend!I went health screening for world heart day and met some friends i've not seen for a month!!Ronald and Yang Sen!!they came for the pathfinder-help out in the walkaton!!but it was really fun!!

my little happy moments

It really dont happen much in my blog,isn't..My happy moment..

Just give me some happy hours,though it oni last for few minit i would still want to share it with u all..

Many people complaint though,saying that i oni write sad stories in my blog..And becos of this sad stories,i lost a good friend..but i dunt want to give anyone troubles,really,my problems are my burdens,not others'.

I went back melaka!!The old peaceful hometown that always can give me peaceful thought and calm my emotion down..

I just missed everything about melaka, so much..

We went to Pahlawan,we split up and i took a walk with my two cousins,while my sis with her friend,and my mom with my grandma and aunt.

it was really "a walk to remember", we walked all around the places, from small building to big building and ended up home with our empty "hands"(but luckily it was not empty pocket..hahaha)

Melaka really change a lot..And Pahlawan changed it..Melaka seems like turning into a big city now..It ain't so real..

Somehow the traffic,still no improvement at all..

Thanks to traffic,we had a wonderful moments in car!i'm laughing away when i'm writing this..

My forgetful mom realized that our car was with limited petrol to go when we were in the traffic..and this made all of us in the car with butterflies in the stomach..Can you imagine!!we were on a traffic jam!!a very very TRAFFIC jam with no petrol station elsewhere.

We were complaining and shouting..What was the ridiculous part?we shout not becos of the limited petrol with the red light on(warning of out of petrol) but was that we saw a van with black glases,which we could not see at all wat was inside the van,and the van was from Singapore!

We suspected that the actress and actor that came to melaka for shooting from singapore were on that van.becos that van was really suspicious!!We shouted and shouted in our car like a bunch of monkey just wanna take a glimpse or a peep inside the van..hoping that the van just speed up more or further than us..I mean we were on a traffic jam man!!How could it be!?

A lot of crazy things we talked and happened in the car for 30 minits ride..ah~i love my family..

My grandma and my cousins who used to be very familiar with melaka lead the way..but my poor cousin,she got us wrong way while we were running out of petrol and got all the complaints..Pity her..then i said"how come when she first lead us there none of u said anything?"

hahaha..it really stir up a crazy atmosphere!!haha..

At night,my mom and grandma and aunt went back with the big car while my sis and i and my cousin stayed at my rich cousins' house for ktv!haha..but it was too late we ended up 3-4 songs oni then went back and my sis drove!

Then the next day in the evening we had a small party at home for my grandma's birthday!Singing birthday songs to my grandma,everyone was very happy!!haha..I love them so much!We went back to Johor at the same day after the celebration,i guessed december oni i got the chance to go back home ord..

The next day in Johor,my 2 friends from KL came to visit me and i brought them to Singapore..Yin Jie and Tian Bo..

I felt so bad for letting them wait for me for an hour becos of the bugis bus..haih!but we had fun!!Lots of fun!!

We went to orchard road,round and round at orchard,we went to Merlion Park,took pictures!Yin Jie going back to China soon,so She made this trip to see me..I'm gonna miss you so much,babe!!

I'll update the pictures real soon..keep update with me^^

tears..do u know when is real?

Different people have different standards of their life..

in my life..

there are only pass..

or fail..

I know..

i am a useless..haih..

I never thought i could be top..not once at all..

People who came across my life said few things bout me..

Some said" you are too humble ord.."this is a nicer way to say but indeed it means..em.."you have no high expectation in your life huh..?"

huh..

man..

it strikes me so hurt..

am i having a dramatic life?

what am i doing..

when i got 30/30 for my 1st quiz for endo..

i have no feelings though i am the only 1 who got it..

now,quiz 2,i got 8 over 15..passing mark is 9..

IT HURT ME SO...BAD...

can i cry?

今天的天空，雨一直下。。

give me a break!!

Use some of my recess time to post 1 here..

I'm sick,i'm so sick of this!!i cant differentiate anymore what is wrong what is right!!

Stayed late at night until 3am..is that normal?!

Again and again i had this suck feeling whenever after a test!!This is not normal oso!!

I cant stop thinking that i did so badly in teh test that it really crush my world down,crush my day!!

I wondered if i got the chance to go en hui's wedding?

My happiest time is Saturday.no doubt of it!!Hui Hong jie is back!!this is a good news!add one more person to help out the church!that is a good thing!!

I always failed to fulfill the promises that i made to people around me..

I'm sorry..

study hour..it really made me a headache..

我想一个人旅行。。

weather

Ya rite..blame it on weather..
i'm kinda moody today..
The college started for few days ord..My sore throat still in recovering progress.
I wonder how will it be when i approach to the patient on my clinical posting 2moro..
I was thinking like allow myself fall into trap ..
Trap that will pull me away from my ritual life..i dont want that to happen..
Pls come back ,my voice..

sore throat

i think i'm going to have sore throat..oh no!!!

my herpes just recovered and now sore throat?!

I wonder why i tend to get sore throat easily nowadays..

I update some new things in my blogger..and search for friends spending hours for that list..

I wonder if good days like these when will they come again?

Yeah!!can go out 2moro to singapore..hopefully it really fulfilled..

well,jye ming came back and made a promise that we will meet up..hope this time really meet up ya!!and sherlina oso!!

It has been decade for not seeing each other..i really miss those time!!

A brand new WELCOME TO YOU!!

我需要溫暖。一點點就好...

每一天的生活都一样。。

今天想了一个问题。。

“如果我突然消失，这世界会怎么样？”
谢谢你们的关心。。
感谢上帝的好消息，我的二姨开始查考圣经了。。
这是一个好消息。。

有人说我需要重拾心情。。

因为我的欢笑被需要。。

谢谢说这句话的朋友。。

OFF

YOOHOOOOOO.........Shall we call this "onset" holiday?Nowadays flu everywhere until my college oso kena..
I'm on my holiday for 2 weeks tiba-tiba..
Though very boring stay at home but i think there should be a time for everything and that include rest!!(trying to find excuse)..

Actually we got only 1 week holiday nia..but then who knows..cases of flu getting more and more..On Friday time received a call from our teacher-Ms.Lim saying that our cases is still not yet achieve government standard..That's why we got this one more week of "rest"!!Well..haih..this ain't a good thing though,cos we had to delay every of our progress 2 weeks further which mean our summer holiday aka december holiday become only 2 weeks instead of 4 weeks..haih..

Heard from Reena(who is now having honeymoon at home) that one AN student and our dear Ms. Lee were admitted to hospital..i wonder how are they now..sumore,Grace and Junior-Choon Keat oso on high fever..but now i think should be ok ord ba!

iI dint get sick o any flu..but i have herpes!!hehe..but now my herpes oso good recovering ord!!No more herpes!No more flu!!yeah!!

aih..is hard to make a decision like this..but then when good things happen we all shout it out loud oso rite!!
I'm going to be a VEGETARIAN!!this is no joke..why they just cant believe me?!they helped me though^^

Acceptance

Well,it's kinda funny for me to talk about acceptance..but i really learnt a lesson through the whole weekend.

How do u feel?when ur friend told u that she felt hurt..she felt heartache when seeing a lots of friends approach you instead of her..How do you feel?it sounds stupidity to you,it sounds like a jealousy to you but it was actually not that way..those words were not meant to speak out easily unless it was really hurtful and no perseverence may stand in her way anymore..

"It gave her a hope if she said out
how she felt all this while..it gave her a possibility to change the situation
that she was in to make her felt better.."

How do i feel?it did not matter anyway..I felt i was a bad person..I felt angry..i was really mean..really..This kept me feeling unease for weeks..My life made a friend miserable..This was 1st time in my life i encountered such thing..funny..

I was lucky though,because a church friend gave me a solution for this problem..Why do i care?What she said really twist my feeling up and down but WHY DO I CARE?Sound bad huh..but my friend gave me a very good reason for this..She said,

"why are u so worried
my friend?why
are you so tense up?God teach us not to take heart what human on
this earth
may say.All you can do is to accept her."

Since then,the knot i've been trying to solve in my heart was being loosen up just like that..like someone holding a scissor cut it off at once..all the things i wanna do now is to accept who she is..I cant change her,nobody cant change her unless God.All i do is to accept her as who she is,who she really is..That wasn't that hard.

T.G.I.F.

I had this screwed feeling today..

It was all KFC's fault..

I shouldn't have said yes when my friend asked me to buy..I was really in a huge regret..

Have you ever ate something that "everyone loves to eat" ESPECIALLY in front of your teacher without sharing our food with he or her?

i felt awkward and unsecure wth so many eyeballs looking at me..they seemed to be questioning me "aren't you going to share this food to people around you?"But well,i dint look back to each one of the eyes but my action answered everything-

Well,what you want me to do?I ain't a billionaire who afford to buy tons of KFC?With my very sincerity honestly,i got oni 2 pieces in my box?What am i suposed to do?!?My mom did taught me need to share things among people that you have contact with BUT she did teach me not to WASTE with the food that i was eating as well!So what would you expected?

A "fine" half-way-eating-Kentucky fried chicken to share??OKOKOK..i did not know what all this crap that i was typing about,I was just get so furious over myself that i thought i was changed..into a person that i did not even understang myself when i mixed with different character of people.

I knew TGI FRIDAY..My dad loves that place..it just gave him a sense of being "classic level",in fact, we are oni a moderate family whom afford for some better achievement in life..TGI FRIDAY is somehow a place that i could remember for a very memorable occasion..It was the day that i got baptized..It surprised me when my dad brought us there..He said as a celebration and a gift..He never tell that he believed in God,but he just gave in,in my Christian life..He never stopped me from getting closer to God.

My brother's birthday yesterday,i was thinking that man and woman really different huh?What make us the biggest different is the THINKING.

My brother seemed doesnt matter for his celebration of birthday,he actually agreed allow to have the celebration on Sunday,which extended for 3 days ahead.If i were in his shoes,i would rather to have the celebration for few days until the coming of Sunday..

Lots of Crap i had been shared to day.

Ps.T.G.I.F stands for another phrase- Today God Is First.I would not forget the samething when it happened twice.

Blue sky,blue love..

i received a very interesting email,wanna share with my readers..

i love pictures..

i love palaroid pictures,i love muffin cakes pictures,i just love how ppl smile on the pictures..

but this is not about smile,not about story..

我在"努力"ing~

study..

study..

study..

i will put in effort no matter what!!thank you all of ur supports!!special thanks to my gurantols who really encourage me n my seniors!!
run out of time,what happen on that day,i'll tell next time!kiss*

你没看见吗?

我的心静下来了..

我今天很冷淡..

一直以来都知道的不是吗?

我怎么了?

看过幾米的一本书,有着很多马路和红绿灯..

马路很乱,路口站着一个女生,在马路的末段站着一个男生..

写着什么我已经不记得了..

看着图片,我也好想对他这样说:"你的世界很复杂,我没有勇气..就算我真的有勇气,踏进去我也会迷路.."

心情只想静下来..不说话,只要静下来就好..

主啊!感谢祢那够用的恩典..我还能撑下去的过程中,是因为心中有一首歌,赞美祢的歌..

在露天台..

今天去了Air Hitam Damp,很开心..难得可以在这么累的时候去看看风景..

我喜欢槟城有几个理由..其中之一就是可以每隔几个星期就能欣赏美丽的大自然..
像是PANTAI KERACUT,PENANG HILL,一边做运动,一边欣赏美丽的风景,真的很棒,是我在KL的时候没试过的..

年终考要到了,我该收拾心情读书了..

PS.在露天台上网聊心情,我也很享受..

雨后晴天的心得..

今天发生了很多事情..有快乐的..有受伤的..不过..这些事好像下了一场雨一样..我看见今天雨后的晴天..很漂亮..很温馨..今天听了D.M. 的证道..我觉得他带给我们的信息是我的问题..对于不同人的的期盼,有时候我们真的能做到哪里就到哪里就好了..

昨天和一个第一次谈心的朋友聊天,让我想到很多事情~人就是这样..真的能不管吗?我不懂..

朋友说我变了..真的吗?主啊!我祷告了..结果虽然没有我们期盼的一样..可是至少祢的平安相信他们已经收到了..

我前一个月读了一本书..关于自闭儿的真实故事..我有个想法..突然好想像故事中的男主角一样,努力,再努力,不为什么..只因为喜欢..