Can you believe that?!I could have one day like this?!!

This is so serious..
No matter what, just have believe in what I 'm going to become..
I never thought that I could have one day like this?!
Can you imagine how anxious I am right now?
SO OBVIOUSLY I am not that type that could handle things like that?!
You want to guess what's going happen to me?
I bet you still have to wait from what I'm going to be..
This is going to be a huge event in my life!!so huge!!
That will frighten every single family members that I have, every church members that know me, and every boy that whosoever had a crush on me!
Am I insane?!They say I am always a "one"..
You are so not going to believe me!
Ok, Iill stop my play and tricks right here..

What do I got here? Will tell you very shortly!

There is a time for midst..

I am thinking, will I ever have the chance to let him know that I liked him before?

I fought with a friend today, I shouted at her in a very rude way. I blamed myself, but actually, after a big round, I realized I was actually blaming on others, I blamed her who started the unpleasant conversation at first. Then I blamed my menstruation. I blamed to my hormones which made me in such a nasty, out of control state. How could I?! I was at wrong!

He came to me, he asked me:"Wei cynn, are you ok?-_-' What happen to you and your friend?(He knows my friend too, the one that I fought with.) " I just could not answer him back. I know, deep down in my heart, that I was at wrong for provoked my own friend in such a situation. Then, on my way back to college, I was thinking why I kept quiet in front of him? Well, we are in the past. All of our "click" moment before, that was all in the past already. I should stop thinking of him and move forward! However, I have such thought - will he ever know that i actually liked him before?

What comes after rain? Now, what I am thinking is not a fair, bright, sunlight-filled day but a day filled with midst. I think this is what life is all about.

Ps. To him, thank you for your friendship.

Giving

Actually, i quite like Dr. Shee's class. Every one was like so dislike his class but I just like the way he teach.

Giving is a celebration. Have anyone of you ever thought that? Well, Dr. Shee just taught us that! See! No one would ever find the time to read all those stuffs unless there is someone bring that to our attention isn't it?

Why at this age of mine, I still encounter with all those peer pressure. I love my friend, you, but that does not mean that you can be rude on me. I stay with you when you are upset, I accompany with you when you need me, but that does not mean you can hurt me in that way! I'm trying to fix the problems "with" me and what about you?! I'm sick of being so selfless anymore.

What is happening? To whom I should ask this question? I did nothing. I did nothing to your relationship. So, you do not have to keep the grudge, don't you? I'm just being friendly, that's all? What do you really want from me? Ain't I just a friend? Why people always think so much?

I'm not pretty, I'm not good in my academic, I have nothing good in me for you to get envy!I'm not picking on you, so why do you do that?! I'm so simple and I want a normal, silent life with all my attention just on my study!Can you give me that peace, will ya?!

I enjoyed my mental health class so much today!I had never thought there is so much to learn in counselling. This is like a brand new "refreshment" for me.Haha...

world cup

I'm not a static student in world cup analysis..

But is so unreasonable for argentina and brazil to lose!!

Argentina and Brazil have no luck for this year i guess?

Dah lah Brazil has no luck yesterday..today german's good luck again?

Why the same mistakes repeated for so many time..

Tomorrow goign back to penang.

Maybe it is time for me to go back Penang..

Have lotzzz of fun this holiday..

Cant wait for the nex vacation in September!i must cum back!!

Heard bad news bout suicide case of Park Yong Ha in korea..

Quite sad..He is so young..why do he want to do such thing?i just don't get it..

Life is very fragile..some people want to live but cannot make it through while some has peanuts problems yet they choose a way to end their lives..

Did not do well in my song service in church today. Maybe i'm not used to it.

Had a communion service today.. I better not watch the fotball match today..

Confusion

Each time when glee promoting advertisement in tv programme. they would define the words they commonly encountered in the experience of their "glee" life.

My definition of confusion ~ is my LIFE.

Wat is going on with the people in their brain in nowadays?
i love my life.
i love where God places me at home, in college and even when in church.

"Am i asking too much from you?why even some simple thing that is so important is asked for me to do yet i can still compromise with the world."

I'm sick and tired of compromising and temptations anymore.

I'm not happy with the feelings that arouse in me when each time i have this problem.

Face it?till when will it be finished?

till when i can have a happy cooling shade that which i really belong with no fear and tears?

Dear God, You have always been so nice to me, Your pouring rain to my empty cup is always so filling.

Your grace have proved that there is no father in this world can love his children like You do.

For every single praise is what You deserve to have.

Is my bad to face this situation today.

Is my bad to have full of problems in my hand today.

I do not deserve Your love but You never forget me, whenever i go and even when i woke up early in the morning, You make good things happen on me.

I love You God.Thank You

i'm so into loser!!!

haha..this is all about glee..
every story starts with a title..
i always believe in that..
Holiday ends soon.. i now left few days to go back to the life that is with stress and always get on my nerves!!
Pals, live happily while you can..play to the fullest while you have the time!

These few days i've been busy watching glee
It's really a nice drama.
NOT too fancy OF their songs but the love story between them, it make me cry.Like i had just read a book. I cant wait for the next series.

毕业典礼

连续三天的毕业典礼好累人。。

这一个礼拜以来发生太多事了。。

为什么这么的突然呢？

这么的突然让所有人都那么伤心。。

我们的努力老师都没看见吗？

只看见我们错的地方。。

态度真有那么严重能把一个人退出学院吗？

态度不好，告诉了再改就可以啦！

为什么要让我们这么的害怕？

过着提心吊胆的生活真的会很累。。

真的。。

今天所犯的错。。对不起。。

奇怪的世界

最近。。
做了一些会让自己后悔的事。。
这学期又到了尾声。。
我想起很多事情。。
每件事情的背后都有一个故事。。
每一个动作背后也有一个故事。。
这是我在这一个学期学习到的。。

我真的累了。。
为生命感到累了。。
想回家。。
想放下，正真的去休息。。

谢谢
每一件事的发生。。
谢谢
每一个故事。。

我能过吗？
不懂。

Life is meaningful

a special week, my "first" - all happen in this week..
my friend cried in my shoulder just now..
she refused to tell me what had happen, silly me, i cried along.
i'm not strong, i'm not a good girl and a good friend.
but when i see her cry, i can feel her pain as well..
the burden and her heart is so heavy..
when she said nothing, the more i cried..
i cant even help her..

the best thing one could have in life

This question came across my mind for a few times..you can hardly think of any best thing in your life when you had a crooked journey. Somehow, as for me, i think that if you really love yourself, at least, think of 1..as to treat yourself better..a little bit more better,please?

Things always happened the way we do not want. Especially when you come to love matters. Pause, my LOVE matter here is not the relationship between boyfriend and girlfriend but is the love matter of friends. Friendship is one of the things that I have experienced happiness, pain, overwhelmed, touch, and of course, agony.

Honestly, those who hurt me, dont judge me by my look. Yes, i'm jolly, yes, i'm happy-go-lucky type, yes, i'm always not serious, yes, i'm casual but...you never thought that i would get hurt, dont you?You never thought that i am sensitive, dont you?you never thought that i can be so serious in your friendship..dont...you..?

I had a conversation with a friend yesterday..So many things she told me, and so many things she lead me to think..

What happen to my close friend?i knew a lot of things..like, all her news are through my finger tips but i never knew what's in her mind..what she was thinking..and what worries me the most at now..is how she thinks of how i think of her..She appreciates our friendship so much that she afraid that how she made me cry would end our friendship..

Yes,what she did is unreasonable, but i dont care..honestly..she is who she is..the friend that i talked to last night, feed me with this thought, that no matter what she did, she is who she is..no one can change her,unless she allows herself to be changed..

I will always remember the conversation i had with my friend last night. It was like a light from God shining on me through her.

LovE..is everything in 1 Corinthians 13 .

I will post out pictures shortly..no worries!hang on!!^^God bless you~