Acceptance

Well,it's kinda funny for me to talk about acceptance..but i really learnt a lesson through the whole weekend.

How do u feel?when ur friend told u that she felt hurt..she felt heartache when seeing a lots of friends approach you instead of her..How do you feel?it sounds stupidity to you,it sounds like a jealousy to you but it was actually not that way..those words were not meant to speak out easily unless it was really hurtful and no perseverence may stand in her way anymore..

"It gave her a hope if she said out
how she felt all this while..it gave her a possibility to change the situation
that she was in to make her felt better.."

How do i feel?it did not matter anyway..I felt i was a bad person..I felt angry..i was really mean..really..This kept me feeling unease for weeks..My life made a friend miserable..This was 1st time in my life i encountered such thing..funny..

I was lucky though,because a church friend gave me a solution for this problem..Why do i care?What she said really twist my feeling up and down but WHY DO I CARE?Sound bad huh..but my friend gave me a very good reason for this..She said,

"why are u so worried
my friend?why
are you so tense up?God teach us not to take heart what human on
this earth
may say.All you can do is to accept her."

Since then,the knot i've been trying to solve in my heart was being loosen up just like that..like someone holding a scissor cut it off at once..all the things i wanna do now is to accept who she is..I cant change her,nobody cant change her unless God.All i do is to accept her as who she is,who she really is..That wasn't that hard.

T.G.I.F.

I had this screwed feeling today..

It was all KFC's fault..

I shouldn't have said yes when my friend asked me to buy..I was really in a huge regret..

Have you ever ate something that "everyone loves to eat" ESPECIALLY in front of your teacher without sharing our food with he or her?

i felt awkward and unsecure wth so many eyeballs looking at me..they seemed to be questioning me "aren't you going to share this food to people around you?"But well,i dint look back to each one of the eyes but my action answered everything-

Well,what you want me to do?I ain't a billionaire who afford to buy tons of KFC?With my very sincerity honestly,i got oni 2 pieces in my box?What am i suposed to do?!?My mom did taught me need to share things among people that you have contact with BUT she did teach me not to WASTE with the food that i was eating as well!So what would you expected?

A "fine" half-way-eating-Kentucky fried chicken to share??OKOKOK..i did not know what all this crap that i was typing about,I was just get so furious over myself that i thought i was changed..into a person that i did not even understang myself when i mixed with different character of people.

I knew TGI FRIDAY..My dad loves that place..it just gave him a sense of being "classic level",in fact, we are oni a moderate family whom afford for some better achievement in life..TGI FRIDAY is somehow a place that i could remember for a very memorable occasion..It was the day that i got baptized..It surprised me when my dad brought us there..He said as a celebration and a gift..He never tell that he believed in God,but he just gave in,in my Christian life..He never stopped me from getting closer to God.

My brother's birthday yesterday,i was thinking that man and woman really different huh?What make us the biggest different is the THINKING.

My brother seemed doesnt matter for his celebration of birthday,he actually agreed allow to have the celebration on Sunday,which extended for 3 days ahead.If i were in his shoes,i would rather to have the celebration for few days until the coming of Sunday..

Lots of Crap i had been shared to day.

Ps.T.G.I.F stands for another phrase- Today God Is First.I would not forget the samething when it happened twice.