There is a time for midst..

I am thinking, will I ever have the chance to let him know that I liked him before?

I fought with a friend today, I shouted at her in a very rude way. I blamed myself, but actually, after a big round, I realized I was actually blaming on others, I blamed her who started the unpleasant conversation at first. Then I blamed my menstruation. I blamed to my hormones which made me in such a nasty, out of control state. How could I?! I was at wrong!

He came to me, he asked me:"Wei cynn, are you ok?-_-' What happen to you and your friend?(He knows my friend too, the one that I fought with.) " I just could not answer him back. I know, deep down in my heart, that I was at wrong for provoked my own friend in such a situation. Then, on my way back to college, I was thinking why I kept quiet in front of him? Well, we are in the past. All of our "click" moment before, that was all in the past already. I should stop thinking of him and move forward! However, I have such thought - will he ever know that i actually liked him before?

What comes after rain? Now, what I am thinking is not a fair, bright, sunlight-filled day but a day filled with midst. I think this is what life is all about.

Ps. To him, thank you for your friendship.