yeah!clinic again!

I really enjoy my time in clinic..Though everything is brand new first time and new experience for me!!i really had a great time there!!And becos of clinic i got the chance to go OT for operation observation!From what i've seen in the movie..actually surgery ain't that horrible and scary..haih..Media nowadays..give false education..



I observed cataract operation today and now i can understand why my grandpa doesn't want to go for the operation ord..

Is scary for patient opening their eyes big and doctor doing procedure with your eyes open..

But you will feel sleepy^^

So no worries..haha



Yesterday my friends and i,4 of us,accidentally read a blog from a guy..We all ended up crying..I mean all the things he wrote i could feel it,Nevertheless,so are my friends..A wonderful person we met in that blog..If you read his story you would cry oso..



It had been such a long time that i dint do such thing with my friends ord..I mean cry together,upset something together for someone..I mean i did have that kind of experience but is with kl and jb friends..happy time happy together,sad time sad together..



I really like the sense of belonging in that way you know..It was like a significance between my friends and i..

At least,when ppl ask,how close we are? i can tell,we are close enough to shed our tears together for a stranger across a blog..



I thank Lord for once again make me feel that i belong in this college at this moment, not in kl anymore..

She's not ok..

What happen?

Why you dont want to tell what happen?

Why you want keep all these to yourself?

Tell me!!who bully you?!..at least let me do something to help you..

at least..take my shoulder for you to lean on..

at least..cry out..

Why you refuse?

Why?

I cant help you..you kno how it hurt so badly to me..looking at you suffering all this..i'm the one that is not good..

Not you..

How i wish i can be the 1 to put the colorful rainbow back on your beautiful face..

but you...

refuse..

Finally..

Mooncake festival..i miss home..a short snap in my dorm..

Hoo~~Finally finish for pengajian am ord!!em..

Reena: why do we need to study pengajian am ar?we as nurses need to go and tell patient like this "once upon a time,our malaysia.."

me: is the policy, this is dasar pendidikan malaysia..exactly what we are studying lo..for pembinaan bangsa dan perlembagaan negara..

Reena: oh..so this is dasar pendidikan ah..this is the rule ah...

me..ya..lol!!

I'm still being very busy at now..haih..but busy is good..a friend told me like that..at least you have fulfillment in your life!that is what she said..That statement is somehow i agree with..busy better than nothing to do..

I'll just have to move forward according to God's will and persevere hard!Em..A lot of things happen recently, sad and happy..good news and bad news..

We are starting new subject now, hemo lectures really make me sleepy..

speaking of sleepy,Reena and i made jokes about one of our senior(boy) the other day..

It was an old old story ord.

We were studying in the library and sitting seperately,this senior(boy) came and sat nearby us..actually he was just pass by!!FUYOH!!!A sense of smell sent to my brain and intrepret goosebumps on my skin!!The smell was like..uh..i guessed was very expensive perfume smell.. it was "nice" to him..hahaha..what can i said..

Reena and i started to sms.

Me:uh..girl.the smell going to make me pengsan!What perfume actually he is using?!!

Reena(reply):Yala!!i guess he campur different brand of perfume together and put on himself..

Me: hahahaha..(i was truly laughing!)yala!!i think he can work in ent clinic.All the patient with block nose or sinusitis will surely get cured right away..

Reena:(laughing also) ahahahaha...he surely cannot work in OT oso..

Me:why?

Reena:later his "aroma" can straight away wake patient with anaesthesia up!
Me:ahahahahahahaahha...(really laugh out loud until others turn their head aroundand looked at me)

I'm sorry but i cant help it..ahahaha..

Today i'm so free ya, suppose to be care plan day but bcos i'm in OB!!yeah!no need to do care plan but sure Madam will ask me a lot of questions like how she did last time..

Did anyone of you learn psycho?and how many percents do you like psycho?i dunt like that subject man..why human behaviour can come out theories oso?my behaviour change everyday..there's no specific name for my characteristic..Haih..all these people who come out psycho are really got nothing to do..

i'm cyborg,but it's ok!

i love the movie so much!!i like rain,and that is one of the reason why i like this movie yet i just love how thier love story goes on!!HIghly recommend for all of you my friends!!

i had a wonderful weekend!I went health screening for world heart day and met some friends i've not seen for a month!!Ronald and Yang Sen!!they came for the pathfinder-help out in the walkaton!!but it was really fun!!

my little happy moments

It really dont happen much in my blog,isn't..My happy moment..

Just give me some happy hours,though it oni last for few minit i would still want to share it with u all..

Many people complaint though,saying that i oni write sad stories in my blog..And becos of this sad stories,i lost a good friend..but i dunt want to give anyone troubles,really,my problems are my burdens,not others'.

I went back melaka!!The old peaceful hometown that always can give me peaceful thought and calm my emotion down..

I just missed everything about melaka, so much..

We went to Pahlawan,we split up and i took a walk with my two cousins,while my sis with her friend,and my mom with my grandma and aunt.

it was really "a walk to remember", we walked all around the places, from small building to big building and ended up home with our empty "hands"(but luckily it was not empty pocket..hahaha)

Melaka really change a lot..And Pahlawan changed it..Melaka seems like turning into a big city now..It ain't so real..

Somehow the traffic,still no improvement at all..

Thanks to traffic,we had a wonderful moments in car!i'm laughing away when i'm writing this..

My forgetful mom realized that our car was with limited petrol to go when we were in the traffic..and this made all of us in the car with butterflies in the stomach..Can you imagine!!we were on a traffic jam!!a very very TRAFFIC jam with no petrol station elsewhere.

We were complaining and shouting..What was the ridiculous part?we shout not becos of the limited petrol with the red light on(warning of out of petrol) but was that we saw a van with black glases,which we could not see at all wat was inside the van,and the van was from Singapore!

We suspected that the actress and actor that came to melaka for shooting from singapore were on that van.becos that van was really suspicious!!We shouted and shouted in our car like a bunch of monkey just wanna take a glimpse or a peep inside the van..hoping that the van just speed up more or further than us..I mean we were on a traffic jam man!!How could it be!?

A lot of crazy things we talked and happened in the car for 30 minits ride..ah~i love my family..

My grandma and my cousins who used to be very familiar with melaka lead the way..but my poor cousin,she got us wrong way while we were running out of petrol and got all the complaints..Pity her..then i said"how come when she first lead us there none of u said anything?"

hahaha..it really stir up a crazy atmosphere!!haha..

At night,my mom and grandma and aunt went back with the big car while my sis and i and my cousin stayed at my rich cousins' house for ktv!haha..but it was too late we ended up 3-4 songs oni then went back and my sis drove!

Then the next day in the evening we had a small party at home for my grandma's birthday!Singing birthday songs to my grandma,everyone was very happy!!haha..I love them so much!We went back to Johor at the same day after the celebration,i guessed december oni i got the chance to go back home ord..

The next day in Johor,my 2 friends from KL came to visit me and i brought them to Singapore..Yin Jie and Tian Bo..

I felt so bad for letting them wait for me for an hour becos of the bugis bus..haih!but we had fun!!Lots of fun!!

We went to orchard road,round and round at orchard,we went to Merlion Park,took pictures!Yin Jie going back to China soon,so She made this trip to see me..I'm gonna miss you so much,babe!!

I'll update the pictures real soon..keep update with me^^

tears..do u know when is real?

Different people have different standards of their life..

in my life..

there are only pass..

or fail..

I know..

i am a useless..haih..

I never thought i could be top..not once at all..

People who came across my life said few things bout me..

Some said" you are too humble ord.."this is a nicer way to say but indeed it means..em.."you have no high expectation in your life huh..?"

huh..

man..

it strikes me so hurt..

am i having a dramatic life?

what am i doing..

when i got 30/30 for my 1st quiz for endo..

i have no feelings though i am the only 1 who got it..

now,quiz 2,i got 8 over 15..passing mark is 9..

IT HURT ME SO...BAD...

can i cry?

今天的天空，雨一直下。。

give me a break!!

Use some of my recess time to post 1 here..

I'm sick,i'm so sick of this!!i cant differentiate anymore what is wrong what is right!!

Stayed late at night until 3am..is that normal?!

Again and again i had this suck feeling whenever after a test!!This is not normal oso!!

I cant stop thinking that i did so badly in teh test that it really crush my world down,crush my day!!

I wondered if i got the chance to go en hui's wedding?

My happiest time is Saturday.no doubt of it!!Hui Hong jie is back!!this is a good news!add one more person to help out the church!that is a good thing!!

I always failed to fulfill the promises that i made to people around me..

I'm sorry..

study hour..it really made me a headache..

我想一个人旅行。。