Life is meaningful

a special week, my "first" - all happen in this week..
my friend cried in my shoulder just now..
she refused to tell me what had happen, silly me, i cried along.
i'm not strong, i'm not a good girl and a good friend.
but when i see her cry, i can feel her pain as well..
the burden and her heart is so heavy..
when she said nothing, the more i cried..
i cant even help her..

the best thing one could have in life

This question came across my mind for a few times..you can hardly think of any best thing in your life when you had a crooked journey. Somehow, as for me, i think that if you really love yourself, at least, think of 1..as to treat yourself better..a little bit more better,please?

Things always happened the way we do not want. Especially when you come to love matters. Pause, my LOVE matter here is not the relationship between boyfriend and girlfriend but is the love matter of friends. Friendship is one of the things that I have experienced happiness, pain, overwhelmed, touch, and of course, agony.

Honestly, those who hurt me, dont judge me by my look. Yes, i'm jolly, yes, i'm happy-go-lucky type, yes, i'm always not serious, yes, i'm casual but...you never thought that i would get hurt, dont you?You never thought that i am sensitive, dont you?you never thought that i can be so serious in your friendship..dont...you..?

I had a conversation with a friend yesterday..So many things she told me, and so many things she lead me to think..

What happen to my close friend?i knew a lot of things..like, all her news are through my finger tips but i never knew what's in her mind..what she was thinking..and what worries me the most at now..is how she thinks of how i think of her..She appreciates our friendship so much that she afraid that how she made me cry would end our friendship..

Yes,what she did is unreasonable, but i dont care..honestly..she is who she is..the friend that i talked to last night, feed me with this thought, that no matter what she did, she is who she is..no one can change her,unless she allows herself to be changed..

I will always remember the conversation i had with my friend last night. It was like a light from God shining on me through her.

LovE..is everything in 1 Corinthians 13 .

I will post out pictures shortly..no worries!hang on!!^^God bless you~

Merry Christmas!Happy New Year in advance!HA!

Yup.When u see this post,i'm now in Johor.
It has been a while..
Watched Twilight:New Moon yesterday..It was not good not bad..Well,it could be better..
I had a lucky day yesterday,i saw a handsome 空少 on the airplace with his charming smile and stylish hair!He was so charming!hahaha...

Stayed at home, received hooi yee's invitation,asking me if i could go kl to find her..well, i wished i could, but my old folks not allow,especially my mom..

Haih..went to see cantata the other day!they are a real success..!The performance and the choir!they really had put a lot of effort in this cantata!All the best guys !Dint really update any pictures ya..
I'm too lazy^^haha..

Fly me to the moon

I went for 2012 last Friday.
It was nice, everyone said that..hahaha...well, i think it was nice too..cried a cuple of times..

Many things happen..i cannot doubt myself with a question like this anymore,am i so irritating?i dunt kno..it seems like nobody like me..And i, dont even have the rite to hate people..

God,will You forgive me?Will You help me to stop all the nonsense that i'm going through in my mind now?I NEED A BREAK..Seriously..

I'm deeply in love with the song that Taekyung sang in You Are Beautiful - Fly me to the moon.

You guys truly gotta go see that part that he sang..Can find it in youtube^^

Can someone fly me to the moon now?

yeah!clinic again!

I really enjoy my time in clinic..Though everything is brand new first time and new experience for me!!i really had a great time there!!And becos of clinic i got the chance to go OT for operation observation!From what i've seen in the movie..actually surgery ain't that horrible and scary..haih..Media nowadays..give false education..



I observed cataract operation today and now i can understand why my grandpa doesn't want to go for the operation ord..

Is scary for patient opening their eyes big and doctor doing procedure with your eyes open..

But you will feel sleepy^^

So no worries..haha



Yesterday my friends and i,4 of us,accidentally read a blog from a guy..We all ended up crying..I mean all the things he wrote i could feel it,Nevertheless,so are my friends..A wonderful person we met in that blog..If you read his story you would cry oso..



It had been such a long time that i dint do such thing with my friends ord..I mean cry together,upset something together for someone..I mean i did have that kind of experience but is with kl and jb friends..happy time happy together,sad time sad together..



I really like the sense of belonging in that way you know..It was like a significance between my friends and i..

At least,when ppl ask,how close we are? i can tell,we are close enough to shed our tears together for a stranger across a blog..



I thank Lord for once again make me feel that i belong in this college at this moment, not in kl anymore..

She's not ok..

What happen?

Why you dont want to tell what happen?

Why you want keep all these to yourself?

Tell me!!who bully you?!..at least let me do something to help you..

at least..take my shoulder for you to lean on..

at least..cry out..

Why you refuse?

Why?

I cant help you..you kno how it hurt so badly to me..looking at you suffering all this..i'm the one that is not good..

Not you..

How i wish i can be the 1 to put the colorful rainbow back on your beautiful face..

but you...

refuse..

Finally..

Mooncake festival..i miss home..a short snap in my dorm..

Hoo~~Finally finish for pengajian am ord!!em..

Reena: why do we need to study pengajian am ar?we as nurses need to go and tell patient like this "once upon a time,our malaysia.."

me: is the policy, this is dasar pendidikan malaysia..exactly what we are studying lo..for pembinaan bangsa dan perlembagaan negara..

Reena: oh..so this is dasar pendidikan ah..this is the rule ah...

me..ya..lol!!

I'm still being very busy at now..haih..but busy is good..a friend told me like that..at least you have fulfillment in your life!that is what she said..That statement is somehow i agree with..busy better than nothing to do..

I'll just have to move forward according to God's will and persevere hard!Em..A lot of things happen recently, sad and happy..good news and bad news..

We are starting new subject now, hemo lectures really make me sleepy..

speaking of sleepy,Reena and i made jokes about one of our senior(boy) the other day..

It was an old old story ord.

We were studying in the library and sitting seperately,this senior(boy) came and sat nearby us..actually he was just pass by!!FUYOH!!!A sense of smell sent to my brain and intrepret goosebumps on my skin!!The smell was like..uh..i guessed was very expensive perfume smell.. it was "nice" to him..hahaha..what can i said..

Reena and i started to sms.

Me:uh..girl.the smell going to make me pengsan!What perfume actually he is using?!!

Reena(reply):Yala!!i guess he campur different brand of perfume together and put on himself..

Me: hahahaha..(i was truly laughing!)yala!!i think he can work in ent clinic.All the patient with block nose or sinusitis will surely get cured right away..

Reena:(laughing also) ahahahaha...he surely cannot work in OT oso..

Me:why?

Reena:later his "aroma" can straight away wake patient with anaesthesia up!
Me:ahahahahahahaahha...(really laugh out loud until others turn their head aroundand looked at me)

I'm sorry but i cant help it..ahahaha..

Today i'm so free ya, suppose to be care plan day but bcos i'm in OB!!yeah!no need to do care plan but sure Madam will ask me a lot of questions like how she did last time..

Did anyone of you learn psycho?and how many percents do you like psycho?i dunt like that subject man..why human behaviour can come out theories oso?my behaviour change everyday..there's no specific name for my characteristic..Haih..all these people who come out psycho are really got nothing to do..